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We are told that productivity is piety. That if you aren't optimizing, you are rotting.

Maturity is the slow, painful realization that forgiveness is not about the other person. It never was. Forgiveness is the sharp knife you use to cut the rope you’ve been hanging from. Mature NL - 5130

I have done terrible things by accident. I have done mediocre things on purpose. I have loved people poorly. I have held grudges like they were winning lottery tickets, refusing to cash them in because the fantasy of revenge was sweeter than the reality of release. We are told that productivity is piety

I’ve been thinking a lot about the concept of "maturity" lately. Not the kind that comes with crow’s feet or a mortgage. I mean the real kind. The kind that bleeds. The kind that looks at a past mistake—not with shame, but with a quiet, devastating clarity: Ah. That’s why I did that. It never was