Not Without: My Daughter Book

Ali cut the wire with a small clipper. He pushed Betty through first. The wire snagged her coat, tearing it. Then Mahtob. Then he slipped through himself. They tumbled down a shallow ravine. The dogs were closer now, howling.

Outside the terminal, the winter sun was pale but warm. The air smelled of coffee and jet fuel and ordinary, glorious freedom. Betty took a deep breath, the first full breath she had taken since tearing up those airline tickets. She held her daughter’s hand, and they walked out into a new world—a world without guards, without walls, without the shadow of a man who had once promised to love her.

The truck bounced along rutted dirt roads for hours. Mahtob vomited from the motion. Betty held her, whispering lullabies. The mountains grew larger, jagged teeth against a bruised purple sky. When the truck could go no further, they got out. The air was thin and cold. Snow covered the ground. not without my daughter book

The guard’s eyes narrowed. But Betty had prepared for this. She launched into a stream of practiced Farsi: “My daughter is ill. We go to the doctor in the north. Please, God bless you, let us pass.”

Betty picked up Mahtob and ran. The weight of her daughter, the burning in her lungs, the fear—it all fused into a single, animal instinct. She did not feel the cold. She did not feel the rocks cutting her feet through her thin shoes. She only felt the need to move. Ali cut the wire with a small clipper

The flight to Tehran had been long. Mahtob had slept against her shoulder, and Betty had felt a flutter of adventure. They landed in a city that hummed with a foreign energy—the call to prayer, the scent of saffron and exhaust, the stern gaze of revolutionary guards. Moody’s family greeted them with effusive hugs and trays of sweets. His mother, a formidable woman with hennaed hair and eyes that missed nothing, kissed Betty on both cheeks. “You are home,” she said.

It was the longest night of Betty’s life. The smuggler moved like a ghost. Betty held Mahtob’s hand, half-carrying, half-dragging her through the snow. The child’s lips turned blue. Her breathing became labored—the asthma. Betty stopped, dug out the inhaler from the coat lining, and gave her two puffs. “You can do this,” she whispered. “We are almost there.” Then Mahtob

The guard hesitated, then waved them through. Betty’s blouse was soaked with sweat.

Mahtob, wise beyond her years, nodded. She had stopped calling Moody “Daddy.” She called him “that man.”