One morning, she saw Winston again. He was crossing the courtyard, his face a gray mask, his body stooped. He did not recognize her. He did not recognize anything except the telescreen and the bowl of watery stew they placed in front of him twice a day.
"Winston," he said. "You are a slow learner."
And for a few weeks, it worked. She taught him how to steal from the canteen, how to bribe the Black market wardens with a wink and a cigarette, how to lie to the Thought Police with a face as smooth as a china plate. He taught her about the Brotherhood, about O'Brien, about the diary. She let him talk. She nodded. She undressed.
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And then, for seventy-two hours, they played a recording of Winston's voice. Not screaming. Not crying. Talking . Explaining, in the calm, precise language of a man who has been completely unmade, how he had never loved her. How she was a tool. How her body was a piece of meat he had used to masturbate against the Party. How her name—Julia—was just a noise he made to pass the time.
A flicker. A tiny fracture in the china plate. Then Julia smiled. "I have no mother, comrade. Only the Party."
She was not broken. She had never been whole enough to break. One morning, she saw Winston again
He will be caught , she calculated. He will confess. He will name me. The best I can do is make sure he names me last. The day it happened, the rain was falling in steel-colored sheets. They were in the rented room above Mr. Charrington's junk shop. Winston was reading from Goldstein's book—something about the proles, something about the future. His voice had that feverish, holy tone Julia despised.
She saw him first during the Two Minutes Hate. He was a thin, sallow man from the Fiction Department, with a varicose ulcer on his ankle and a look of perpetual, abstracted nausea. While the rest of the room screamed at the face of Emmanuel Goldstein, Winston sat with his hands limp in his lap, his jaw slack. Not rebelling. Just absent. As if he had already been vaporized.
O'Brien stood there, flanked by two guards in black uniforms. His face was kind. Almost sorrowful. He did not recognize anything except the telescreen
"Would you betray Winston Smith?"
"I already have," she said. And for the first time in her life, Julia told the truth. They released her six weeks later. Her hair had been cut short. Her ration card was reduced by half. A new scar ran from her collarbone to her ribs—a souvenir of the electro-whip. They gave her a new job in the Pornosec division, shredding illicit photographs of couples kissing.
Julia decided he was either a spy or a man who could be broken. She preferred the latter. Spies were predictable. Broken men were useful.
