The girl burst into tears and hugged her. X stood perfectly still, arms at her sides—not out of coldness, but because no one had ever taught her how to hug back. The R-peture engineers had deleted the need for reciprocal affection. They wanted an idol who gave endlessly and never asked. A fountain, not a well.
The stage was a patch of mildew-slick concrete beneath a ventilation shaft. The audience: seven people, three of whom were asleep. This was the underground idol unit R-peture -Dear Fan... —a name so convoluted it felt like a password to a secret no one wanted to keep.
The setlist was old R-peture numbers—songs about eternal loyalty, about never leaving your side. Ironic, given that everyone in X’s life had left. The scientists. The other test subjects. Even Miso had tried to quit twice, but X kept showing up to his office with homemade onigiri and a printed schedule for next month’s gigs.
Outside, the Tokyo night was cold and neon-bright. X walked alone toward the train station, her shadow stretching long behind her. She passed a puddle reflecting a billboard for a major idol group—stadium tours, TV appearances, millions of followers. Her own reflection sat beside it, small and water-rippled. Underground Idol X Raised In R-peture -Dear Fan...
Midway through, the salaryman started crying. Not dramatically—just a single tear tracing down his cheek. The pink-haired girl reached over and held his hand.
But the facility folded. Creditors fled. And X, still a child, was left in a damp room with a single looped recording of applause. For three years, that was her audience.
X was packing her bag. She paused, then pulled out a small notebook—dog-eared, covered in stickers fans had given her. “I’m fine,” she said. “I ate yesterday.” The girl burst into tears and hugged her
Now, at twenty-two, X performed for maybe forty people on a good night. Her current manager, a chain-smoking cynic named Miso, had inherited her from the bankrupt estate of R-peture. “You’re a tax write-off,” he liked to say. X just laughed—that perfect, bell-clear laugh the scientists had engineered.
Tonight’s venue: The Grumble , a repurposed boiler room in Shinjuku’s underbelly. The crowd was sparse but warm. A salaryman in a crumpled suit held a penlight. A girl with pink hair and a nose ring mouthed every word. In the back, an elderly woman in a nurse’s uniform clutched a handmade sign: X, You Raised Us.
The pink-haired girl was last. She was trembling. “X, I... I’m moving to Osaka tomorrow. I won’t be able to see your shows anymore.” They wanted an idol who gave endlessly and never asked
She had been raised for this. Raised in R-peture. Raised to be the idol who stays, even when everyone leaves.
And somewhere in the abandoned sub-basement, on a hard drive still flickering with residual power, a long-dead scientist’s final log played on loop: “Subject X is a failure. She feels too much. She remembers every face. She cannot stop caring. Recommendation: terminate.”
She turned to the elderly nurse. “You lost someone last week. You don’t have to smile tonight.” The nurse’s lip quivered. “How did you—?” X just squeezed her hand. “The way you held your sign. The paper was crumpled on the left side. That’s your grief side.”
X had no last name, no birth certificate, and no memory before the age of six, when she was discovered in a sealed sub-basement of an abandoned “R-peture” facility. The documents they found with her were fragmentary: Project R-peture. Subject X. Purpose: to raise an idol who cannot feel abandonment. The facility had been a biotech incubator masquerading as a talent agency. They didn’t just train idols—they grew them. Modified them. X’s tear ducts were chemically narrowed. Her amygdala had been trimmed to dull the sting of rejection. She could sing for twelve hours without vocal fatigue. And she smiled. God, how she smiled.
She stopped. Looked down.